If not now, when?

The battery on my .mp3 player concked out on me mid-run a few Sundays ago, so I switched over to Pandora on my phone. One of my stations is “Papa Roach”, and I was cruising along to some nice, fairly hard-core alternative rock. The songs fit my mood, fit the miles, and all was right with the world. Ahhhh…running.

Soon enough a song came on that had some almost unintelligible lyrics. This song, in particular, made me stop running long enough to see who was singing/screaming in my ears. Turns out it was Papa Roach. The line that made me take notice was one of my long favourite quotations, “If not me, who? If not now, when?” Bingo. Exactly that.

A few years back I was ‘enrolled’ in a week long class that tried to teach me new coping skills, how to get along with others, and how to be more ‘mindful’. Did you just shudder, too? Yea, i can’t even type that word without getting sweaty palms. No one has ever been able to explain what ‘mindful’ means, at least not in different terms than I already apply to the way I think (at least in my mind….)

A new chapter is unfolding in my life. Hang on, this one is going to be quite a ride.